Theres no point in doing what i wanna do. Cause i guess they make me a bad person i guess. Oh well idc anymore. I was born to serve nd please ppl and not be able to do what i wanna do. Sorry that ima guy, its just how iam … Ugh fuck it. Theres no good reasons for what i want except i just want it.
I cant believe im gonna stop dancing. Hello future.
All this stuff after highschool, is pretty heavy to think about and deal with, when ur getting close to the end. Dont get me wrong i love dancing i wish i could do it forever. But theres that point in ur life when u gotta get ready for the real world. And i wanna move out more then anything. Now i understand why all seniors that once danced slowly stopped cause they had to worry bout other issh, like after highschool. It was the best thing to do in highschool for me nd some others. If i could do it forever, and not have to worry bout money nd living on ur own, or making a living, that would be amazing. thats just not the case. Its not like im that good, where i can rely on it forever. U can only dance for soo long. It was never bout showing at school or to ppl. For now, i needa focus on priorities, and jus take out my emotions on dance, thats why i dance to let out whatever i feel. Growing up sucks. lol. Some of u still have a few more years ahead of u, but the senior/future thing, will hit u. And its like someones forcing u to step out become a full on adult. haha
U wonder why i sleep late and im so tired during the day, its nights like these, when u walk away. sucks knowing im not worth it to u. or anybody. u yell nd curse at me, for trying to talk? ok i guess ill jus accept everything for u to be happy.
i dont want this life. i rather live the life like in The Walking Dead, and be in Rick Grimes group, nd my weapon is two short swords.
Seriously? The only thing this family talks bout is them dying? Like any peace? And seriously like where are all my good friends at? I swear like yall come to me when u need something like so fag i used to kno, i swear u piss me off wit ur attitude, ill prolly jus hit you when u say something stupid, watch around all the upcoming events, the ones who barely talk or invite me anywhere are gonna start asking for rides nd shit… U will kno if ur that person if i answer you with a fuck u